Mark Kelly - Going Under lyrics

Is it wrong to talk to myself even when there's nobody else I'm just checking out that I'm not gone under the water Thrown on the beach like a seal ready for slaughter Can't you understand that the way things were planned It never worked out so I just went crazy I took to the drink, like something says it's "maybe" I ain't got no excuse and that's really the news Got nothing else to say, that it's my way, it's always my way I seem to be running away so often I'll try anything once and that's the way we should be But it's always the same getting caught up again in a habit A habit I just can't shake off the way it always turned out Can you understand it's the way I choose to be Everything seems so easy this way but I'm going under fast Slipping away Am I so crazy