Mara Carlyle - Alive lyrics

I'm surprised by the sun everyday I wake up I'm surprised by waking up I'm surprised to see my blood still running through, erupt me Think I must have died but I'm surprised to sledge (?) upon a darkness night I have cried a well of poisoned tears I'm surprised that your skin can let in so much sin But I know I'm still alive Looks like I'm alive Looks like I'm alive Looks like I'm alive Looks like I'm alive I have tried to understand the hardest riddles Love and hate beloved and strange And I am tired but I know how to stop with ??? dried (?) Now I know I'm still alive Looks like I'm alive Looks like I'm alive Looks like I'm alive Looks like I'm alive Alive Alive Alive