Manticora - In the Abyss of Desperation lyrics

I wish I could free myself Of the arrogance I had when I was younger But the knowledge does not make up for the pain For all the pain that I suffer Nothing really works anymore This proud machine is falling apart in decay And the disparaging eyes that stare at me Makes me want to die today I know I breed contempt I felt the same in my first stages It's just another lesson That you learn through the ages I only rejected you to keep away from sorrow I pushed you away to k** the future pain To see all your loved ones disappear one by one Would make an old fool like me go insane Weakened beyond what I thought was possible Defying my sense of imagination I'm crying out from the abyss of desperation I know I breed contempt I felt the same in my first stages It's just another lesson That you learn through the ages