Mansions - Gotta Be Alone lyrics

I remember thinking as I laid upon the floor All of the lights off and listening to Sharp I was afraid But I'm not sure what of And I would shut my eyes and turn on the tv To people speaking in a language I can't speak And I would say, how I would say That I was being healthy But no, I was far from healthy And nobody saw me at all But sometimes you just gotta be alone And if you can't be happy on your own Then how will you ever be happy with somebody else Think I was dancing when she walked into the room Next thing I know, we're sharing a cab home I made her laugh But I should've left it alone Cause cut to two weeks later and I'm picking at a scab When at a party her friend tells me "don't be mad" 'twas a mistake, a small mistake And I was aware of that But no, it don't hurt that bad It's only a scratch I'm not a train wreck for you Well she was falling down the stairs, drunk and pathetic It was so hard not to laugh, I won't ever forget I was sitting on the floor, dressed up as batman Flicking people off and making fun of their accents Concluding to myself that I would always be alone But it was premature, I was only nineteen years old