Manning - Owning Up lyrics

Did I dream a little too hard for you, did I lie awake too long? Did I k** all of those moments from a need to feel it strongly Did I make a dozen castles from a grain of shifting sand And did I use you in a way I'll never understand Was that time for you so special, did it rank up there at all? Or a last fling divergence on accelerating fall Did I justify the emotion, did I try to write your lines? Did I need to need you so much, at the time? When I got the letter from her and I knew that you had gone Did I feel a rush of sorrow, did I feel a ma**ive wrong? Did I want to feel so wretched so I could purge an aching soul? Or was I pulling down the dam (x2) instead of mending the hole Did I launch into bravado, did I go into my act Did I prefer to play it my way and sign some unsealed pact Did I cry as loud as anyone could and give it my best shot? Did I do you any justice or did I not? Sometimes things work out right and then things get in the way And when you hold them to the light.... You're with me still But we were only friends