Mal Blum - Dysmorphic lyrics

I packed my overnight bag a year before They say "everyone's waiting for something" And this is what I have been searching for. Do not call the doctors They will not tell you a thing And do not call my father As if he knew how I was doing Bandages all around, Jello running down my chest. Hope for the best This is not what I had expected You were not the person I projected on you from the start Now my nerves are a bowl full of porridge Drive the last nail and close up this casket And I know it's dramatic But Baby, I'm manic And the verdict of late is dysmorphic Like I could be, I could be, I could be better Like I could be, I could be, I could be better Like I could be, I could be, I could be better, I swear And if I develop infection I will scratch you right out of my skin If I come home looking different Please do not ask me where I have been I was there, under my skin Everything I knew that I would have been For you were there, under my skin Everything I did that I'd do again Because I was there, under my skin Everything I knew that I would've been For you were there, under my skin Everything I did that I'd do again Everything I did, oh, I'd do again Everything I did, oh, I'd do again and again 'Cause I could be, I could be, I could be better I could be, I could be, I could be better I could be, I could be, I could be better, I swear I packed my overnight bag a year before They say "everyone's waiting for something" I don't want to wait anymore.