Madlib - Deeper lyrics

[Verse: 1] Wake up, put my sh** on and i go to school Clothes new, fresh pressed, yes i'm looking cool Ride the bus thinking bout a trifling woman Gossiping b**hes say she s**ed 4 n***as up At the damn same time, she couldn't get enough No strings attached benefits, she was in love Thinking to myself, she must have a reason Seeing is believing, guess we need to have a meeting [Verse: 2] One day, i was walking through the hallway This girls books got knocked down But she kept a straight face The kids who did it started laughing as they walk away Helped her get her sh** up, i asked if she was okay Said she used to this type of abuse In my mind i'm wondering how long until she get a noose Face full of bruises Marks on her arms Said with a smile, those d** must keep you calm huh She smiled back, what are you gonna judge me too? Naw i don't know the things you been through I'm not a saint by any means on my soul Life is a play and the maker handed me a role In this world, i wasn't born perfect, and neither were you Devils in red dresses have the best perfume Let me show you what this friendship sh** mean Give me your hand, stand up, walk with me [Verse: 3] I was the only motherf**er she could talk to She told me bout how them n***as rode the train on her caboose Her father popping bottles always in his f**ing sorrow That's why she got fresh bruises for tomorrow He resent her since she look like her mother She left his a** for a better significant other That n***a isn't a father, he's a b**h with a dick His daughter tired of putting up with the bullsh** So she told me she was gonna turn her life around She had her eyes set, going for that cap and gown Got clean from all them d** she found solace in And Didn't pick it up when they call again It was good until she got splattered on a car hood The driver and his friends was wasted coming from a party Gone too soon, she wasn't meant to be clean Now only her essence walks with me [Verse: 4] Its been a long time since i thought about her I just had to keep it moving i'm living without her Taken from the world with nothing good done The reaper is silent then its gone They wouldn't let her change her habits, not a single one Look within, thinking will i change myself? Don't think i can Does that mean i'm going against what she wanted to achieve? With all the good will i have in my being Nothing will change, all i can say is sorry