Made For Fame Records - Moments lyrics

[Hook: MayDay] All these moments They're coming back to my mind All those times I fought so hard To not become What I always despised I looked in my mirror So that I could finally see What I always dreamed of Who my mother always Wanted me to be [Verse 1: MayDay] I think about my past Sometimes it's hard to smile Been through some rough patches But I know I'll still be alright Never had a dad who ever had my back I tried to dedicate one song to him But couldn't even look back At memories of Christmas evenings Where my mother hid some presents So that he wouldn't see them I was only four but knew home was war He grabbed her neck and told her That her child didn't need her support Money was always the issue He would have choked on it If I had given him what I make now He was always finding bad habits So he could finally be proud Of using his arrogant tongue And leaving bruises on my mother's mouth I'll never forget the nights That I was still awake Hearing him touch her skin Hearing her cry out and pray I swear if I had been a monster I would have grabbed his throat Choked him till he couldn't breathe anymore But my mother was the one Who always held me back Told me that one day we'd be free of dad Then when I was twelve Saw my father walk out the door Cause life was just too hard For a man who was busy chasing who*es I never knew that being a father Was really this tough What a curse it must have been To go out and do whatever the hell you want And to still have a wife Who adored and loved you And I know I'm my own type of crazy But I would never even think About walking out on Lily No matter how hard things got Or all those horrible evenings That I fought with her mother Dealing with all the feelings That come with being loved And having to give love in return Something that I learned to breathe in Cause loving Lily was my number one reason To work harder, to try to be Nothing like what my father was to me [Hook: MayDay] All these moments They're coming back to my mind All those times I fought so hard To not become What I always despised I looked in my mirror So that I could finally see What I always dreamed of Who my mother always Wanted me to be [Verse 2: MayDay] And this type of life ain't easy When you learn almost every day That someone you love Has been taken away Someone shot and k**ed Someone lost to addiction Chris was busy popping pills Danny was busy injecting Right in front of his kids They were all caught up in their ways I still think about them today I never judge anyone Cause I know how it feels To be trapped in your own devastation To not be in control No matter how much you love your family You want even more And power is hungry It wants a bite of your flesh Sometimes we become blind Thinking that starting fresh Means hanging our souls On burning threads The fire eats us up And then makes us regret Right in the moment When we see that it's too late The spotlight was ready It just needed some time For us to finally satisfy our minds We're so busy looking for something That will make us feel pure We look for battles That have already been won We look for others' scars To heal the ones we wore And that crooked smile We had on wasn't so sure We could manage the damage And all the misery We wanted to forget But the past keeps on giving It reminds us every day That we're still learning We're still growing to find Another life where the light always shines [Hook: MayDay] All these moments They're coming back to my mind All those times I fought so hard To not become What I always despised I looked in my mirror So that I could finally see What I always dreamed of Who my mother always Wanted me to be [Verse 3: MayDay] I remember the day Lily asked if we could pray I held her in my arms Told her that everything would be alright Told her that no matter what happens That she'll always be the reason for my life Being such a blessing The day she was born I felt that nothing could Ever stop me in this world From following my dreams And teaching her to follow hers To teach her to never Let anyone tell her What type of life she deserves To see her smile Has been the reason that I wish That my mama was still here So she could see this Moment of joy that she always Wanted her son to have I hope she knows that She's always been my number one fan The music always brought me To a whole new world One I've been grateful I've been given a chance to explore And I thank every single fan Who supports what I do Without you all I wouldn't have any work to do I wouldn't have been able to feed My family those nights I thought I was gonna stay broke Even though I saw the lights Flashing before my eyes Telling me that I'd make it And I'm here now As a new and improved MayDay