M33k Billz - Depressing days leave you in a haze lyrics

Man it's s**s , my raps are sad and depressing , I rap about the gangs I used to rep , an the nights I was in debt but , I can't write happy , I really want too , if I could it would be a dream come true , my boy dropping out on my demo because he ain't got the hatred , I mean I just want , my child hood back the way it was , some f**ed sh** happens then but for the most it was good , then I listened to rap got Bullied and I was forever hood , I wish I could stand tall and be happy , but I just want to get into fights and knock n***as out and play call of duty zombies , my main man , my homie , he still love me , but I need help so he can change me