M.A.L.C. - Destroyed Record X1 lyrics

[Verse 1: M.A.L.C.] Just A Young n***a Trynna Make A Living Off Rapping Doing Graphic Designs And Maybe Even Get Into Acting I'm Just Trynna Get Your Attention Trynna Get You To Listen I'm Just Trynna Show Everybody That I'm Something Exquisite Trynna Climb A Long Ladder Outta The Way That I'm Living Depression On My Medulla My Visions Are Very Vivid The Way That I Write These Lyrics It's Something Like Drawing Pictures Guess That's What Makes Me And Artist "Elaborate How It Started" 3rd, 4th, 5th, 6th, 7th, 8th Grade, I Got Bullied On The Way That I Dressed Been Into A Lot Of Fights And Lost More Than Success That's Something I Can Admit To Unlike You p**y n***as That Ain't Never Aimed A Gun When She Came Around The Corner Everybody Wanna Run And Her Mentality Actually Inherited To Me Gotta Go Harder Than Ever With The Talents That I Got To Make It To The Top Don't Care If It's Simple Or Not As Long As I Remain In The Lane Of Being Hot And Never Ever Get Tricked Out Of My Position By A Thot 9th Grade I Failed Three Times Wishing I Could Rewind Intelligent But Ignorant Lazy And Wasn't Into It Thought That I Could Make It Off Rapping, Fo Graduation I Don't Smoke And I Don't Drink I'm Conscious Of What I Think But Blinded To A lot Of Things Which Leads Me On As I Used To Ponder My Thoughts Of The Government "What Was The sh** That You Thought Of Them?" Believed In Illuminati And How I Thought They Was Coming In As The System Was k**ing Off People To Lower The Population From Being Equal This sh** Is No Longer See Through.. With The Push Of A bu*ton These Muthaf**as'll Delete You People Switched Up & Betrayed Me Left Me, Said I Was Shady The sh** Used To Drive Me Crazy Now It Longer Phase Me I Done Got So Used To People Coming And Going The Only Thing That Matters Now Is What I Say In My Drawings To Reach Out To Who Relates Who Can Understand What I Say? Question That I Ask Myself When I Feel I'm No Longer Sane "Trust Issues.." Million Thoughts Circling My Brain See Everyone As A Duplicate Thinking They Gonna Change "Your An Introvert?" With A Mental Mask On My Face Aloof, When I'm In Public A Loner That I Proclaim To Be In A Situation Where I Don't Want Them Around Me I'm Hustling, Trynna Make It And Everybody Just Down Me I'm Starting To Feel Like Clayton Go M.I.A., And Go Silent Feel Like I Don't Get Enough f**ing Credit For My Talent I Work So Hard Snap My Neck For People Why Do I Feel Like They Don't Really Give A f**.. Almost Starting Not Even To Believe In Love.. Starting To Feel Like That I'm Actually Corrupt.. They Coming For Me They Wanna See Me Give Up.. They Wanna Break Me Down And Have Me Self Destruct..