So you know I was like I had so many things, I mean my My album was almost Platinum But in, but in reality I don't know, man It's was like, I was, I was still I was sad all over again, man And I could not understand, I was like I was a spiritually dehydrated man So I had to go back, I had to rewind back to the things That I did when I was incarcerated man, I had to go You know when you be spiritually dehydrated man You gotta go back to the river