Lucian - If I Die lyrics

[Sample of Marvin Gaye 'If I Should Die Tonight'] "Oh...If I should day tonight Oh baby, though it would be far before my time I wouldn't die blue, sugar yeah cause I known you" [Verse One]: I'm out here tryin' to make thing run I didn't think about the one's I shunned to get it done son Family and friends can't stand me again I ain't that talkative but hand me a pen And I'll begin, first of all I'm doin' bad, way worse than y'all When you up and score, hurt when you fall, end of it all I never had a chance to ball like we supposed to Lettin' down the people I was close to People I owe to And cats who was down with my old crew And friends even got the same tattoo I do I asked them for patience we waitin' for pay stubs Marathon Man still drinkin' outta paper cups Splashy, all in the mix and get it mastered sh** faced, sippin' a Schlitz and gettin' plastered Just playin' the role that we was casted fo' Somethin' this big has to blow, it has to happen so [Hook] [Lucian]: "If I die" Would you forgive me for how I did you wrong? "If I die" Would you remember me as your enemy? "If I die" If I died then I apologize "If I die" For all of the wrong that was done With this song I would hope my apology helps, helps [Verse Two]: My old theme is keep me in green I keep 'em near My apologies for my deeds I speak it clear Somethin' held me back from my needs and that was fam Felt God atmosphere, too shady Lucifer Caught in the middle of a knock down brawl Walk around cause I can't knock down walls Get telephone calls 'bout how I'm not makin' it My girl act like she don't like me not fakin' it The world lacks righteousness So drunk, many nights I missed, to get it right like this My daughter's forehead gets kissed Cause see she's only five turnin' six, she don't understand drama Between me and her mama Because I only give her three numbers, not four, no commas No matter what, I still love her though I gotta say it, if I died tonight she'd never know [Hook] [Verse Three]: If I perish without hittin' the top like climbin' Everest By every chick I slept with, I'd never be missed I did 'em wrong, then I put they business in a song Stole from 'em, told 'em how no dude would want 'em Lied like I lay in a bed All day playin' with they head Give 'em some s** that keep 'em fed I'm ashamed of the way I played the game of love And my man's wettin' sitting at the church just sweatin' Lookin' around, swearin' I'ma get struck down Knowin' that I left every love I found My mom's wasn't around, she dropped me like a shipment Maybe that's why I got a fear of commitment Maybe that's an excuse, probably a lame one My father used the noose, wonder should I use the same one? [Hook]