LOUDEN - FUCKED UP (SCARRED FOR LIFE) lyrics

This iS THE LAST CHANCE, THAT IM GONNA GIVE YOU TO LET ME DOWN, ONLY GOD KNOWS WHY I FEELL YOU TO BE REAL YOU, ARE SOMETHING IVE ALWAYS HATED SOMETHING THAT IN LIFE I THOUGHT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE SACRED BUT I HAD TO FAKE IT, TAKE IT- IN -AS A KID LEARNED IN LIFE, YOU CAN NEVER DEPEND ON ANYBODY, ANYTHING, ANY SET SCHEDULE EVERY TIME I THINK IVE GOTTEN COMFORTABLE, THEY LET GO SAID SO, THATS THE REASON BEHIND EVERYTHING I DO IN FACT, IMPULSIVE ACTIONS BROUGHT ME TO YOU SEEING THRU EVERYTHING YOU TRIED TO HIDE IN THE BEGINNING EVEN BLIND TO YOUR REFLECTION & THE SINNING THAT YOU BRAG ABOUT- WHEN I TAG, I MOUTH WORDS- UNDERNEATH MY BREATH, THEY COME OUT FROM IN MY CHEST IM IMPRESSED, THAT THE FABRICATIONS THAT YOU SHOOT THRU MY EARS SOUNDED SO PRETTY, PITY PARTY, PART- IF WE, LIFT THEE BLINDFOLD MADE OF BRICKS , UP OFF MY EYES AND THE CHAIN TO MY HIPS, THEN I'LL REALIZE ALL YOU TOLD WAS LIES, LOVED TO SEE ME CRY & NEVER GONNA BE ANOTHER LOVE LIKE YOU & I WORDS CANNOT DESCRIBE, WHAT I FELT INSIDE DEMONS PUSHING OUT FROM IN STOMACH & I DIED THAT SUMMER THAT YOU LEFT ME, PROMISED YOU WOULD GET ME EXACTLY WHAT YOU GAVE ME & IT MADE ME JUST A LITTLE CRAZY, JUST ENOUGH TO BE COLD HEARTED, GUARDED, INTERIOR ROUGH, fu*k LEFT ME SO fu*kED UP, I THINK YOU SCARRED THIS b*tch FOR LIFE BOYS ARE JUST b*tchES, THEY PLAY GAMES & SOME PLAY IT RIGHT I DONT TRUST NOBODY CUZ PEOPLE'R ALL THE SAME & DONT EXPECT PERFECTION CUZ YOU'LL BE THE ONE TO BLAME FOOL ME ONCE, SHAME ON YOU, FOOL ME TWICE, NOT NICE NEVER EVER GONNA TRUST ANOTHER s*ut IN IN MY LIFE BUT IF I FIGHT, URGES THAT I HOLD BACK fu*k HER UP WHEN I SEE HER & ILL MAKE A WHOLE TRACK ABOUT THE VICTORY, b*tchES LOVE THE DICK YA SEE PENIS IS THE PRIZE POSSESSION- THEY LOVE TO BE IMAGINING, THEY WERE ME, SO THEY CHASE AFTER MY BOYFRIENDS su*kING DICKS BETTER THAN PROSTITUTES, NOISE ENDS TOYS BEND WHEN I SLASH EM, NEVER GONNA PASS EM CUZ IM ON THAT P TRACK, HOODRATS, WE DONT NEED THAT SEE THAT, I BE KILLING EM, APPLES, I BE PEELING EM HOW YOU LIKE IT NOW ? COMING DOWN TO THE CEILING IM SITTIN ON THE ROOF, SITTING UPSIDE DOWN AT A DIFFERENT PERSPECTIVE & DAMN I REALLY SEE IT NOW ! SEEING HOW- I COULD BE SO- WHATS THE WORD ? GULLABLE, & LOVEABLE, SO MOTHER fu*k THE WORLD HOW COULD IT BE SO CRUEL TO ME WHEN ALL I DO IS DESECRATE IT KARMA WANTS TA BOX & I REALLY fu*kEN HATE IT EVEN WAITED, HESITATED--> WHEN SHE STEPPED TO ME STILL SAID IT LIKE, b*tch, YOU BETTER BRING YOUR BEST TO ME LEFT ME SO fu*kED UP, I THINK YOU SCARRED THIS b*tch FOR LIFE HOES ARE JUST b*tchES, THEY PLAY GAMES & SOME PLAY IT RIGHT I DONT TRUST NOBODY CUZ PEOPLE'R ALL THE SAME & DONT EXPECT PERFECTION CUZ YOU'LL BE THE ONE TO BLAME