Lou Reed - Heroin lyrics

I don't know just where i'm going But i'm goin' to try for the kingdom if i can 'cause it makes me feel like i'm a man When i put a spike into my vein Then i tell you things aren't quite the same When i'm rushing on my run And i feel just like jesus' son And i guess i just don't know And i guess that i just don't know I have made very big decision I'm goin' to try to nullify my life 'cause when the blood begins to flow When it shoots up the dropper's neck When i'm closing in on d**h You can't help me not you guys All you sweet girls with all your sweet talk You can all go take a walk And i guess i just don't know And i guess i just don't know I wish that i was born a thousand years ago I wish that i'd sailed the darkened seas On a great big clipper ship Going from this land here to that I put on a sailor's suit and cap Away from the big city Where a man cannot be free Of all the evils in this town And of himself and those around Oh, and i guess i just don't know Oh, and i guess i just don't know Heroin, be the d**h of me Heroin, it's my wife and it's my life Because a mainer to my vein Leads to a center in my head And then i'm better off than dead When the smack begins to flow Then i really don't care anymore About all the jim-jims in this town And everybody putting everybody else down And all of the politicians makin' crazy sounds All the dead bodies piled up in mounds, yeah When that h**n is in my blood And the blood is in my head Thank god I'm as good as dead And thank your god that i'm not aware And thank god I just don't care And i guess i just don't know And i guess i just don't know