Lil Dicky - Really Scared lyrics

[Intro:] Yeah, I feel like people are really weird about admitting when they're scared If you're not scared ever, you're just lying or something. You're being weird [Verse 1:] Ten days in the Bay left And I don't mean to overthink that Got a one-way straight to LAX And I ain't blinked yet I know you think that I done figured out this whole thing Like where his chink at? Segue to Lil Dicky getting bigger than Yao Ming But can I shrink that? Where my shrink at? I don't know what to feel, everything has gotten totally real Everything I always wanted right in front of me with nobody near So it's weird that I'm overly scared, but I'm so unprepared Holding a beer, I'm witholding the fear Not in the clear but I'm kind of revered And yeah I might appear like the chill type The veneer's not real in the real-life What it feel like? Thanksgiving I was missing, I ain't even miss 'em Girlfriend hella distant, I ain't even listen Only sh** I really care about is spittin writtens This is the beginning I'm just getting into the game My world's not spinning the same The sh** looking like it's bigger than Dave It's so crazy But when all this sit in the stake I can't brake Even if I'm afraid it might change me [Pre-Hook:] If you let me You know I could get deep Really hope you ready I'm coming through Running you That's what I do Just know that it's all for you So what you gonna choose? Afraid to say OK [Hook:] And I know I'm not gonna get in the way But I'm afraid Who I want to be is what I became But I'm ashamed Ain't no coming back Facing what I wanted But it's all f**ing weird And now I'm really scared [Verse 2:] I ain't made from the projects But you know I treat the game like a project So you know it's not the same kind of progress Different process, but I digress Other rappers didn't blow overnight They ain't have a 9-5 that was totally ripe They was all up on the grind from the moment they write At 25, hadn't even done a show in my life It's like - "Damn, I'm a rapper, how did that happen?" I was making a** then back when Only used to rapping to my Mac then Youtube views came in, like "Shoot, let's practice" Trying to tell you I'm not bred for this sh** Despite that, feeling like I'm meant for this sh** But like that, everything depends on this sh**? And I ain't betting against it But I ain't haf a moment to reflect what I'm betting against it I'm next even though it's pretentious, I sense it Relentlous, but it leave me defenseless I guess I should learn to accept it but it's hectic Oh, you want a condensed list? I'm worried that I'm about to give my all to it, 100% You ain't got to know it all to discover what's left Pretty f**ing intense And I'm worried that I got a lot of gall when it comes to success Telling y'all that it's 100% But what happens if I fall short of what I call the surest of bets? Cause what's 100%? What's 100% is that it'll take a lot to make me content And I'm about to chase around a legend that I f**ing invented While I'm neglecting everybody that I love and respected Because I hate the thought of coming in second And I don't want to do no second guessing when it comes to progressing Because I really couldn't stomach regretting my effort When I'm at the end and I'm a**essing if I could have done better I better be able to be it or never, or be the best ever But if somehow I'm really that special then I'm about to deal with mad pressure I fear that when I finish my a**essment I'm a be in depression Because I'll see a lot of me is regressing It's obvious to me that to be the best a lot of me is repressing itself I wonder what I'll see in reflections? I wonder if I'll run into a woman, cool, but come in second Or if I'm bound to be the fool at the weddings Alone and regretting the whole thing Now you're seeing why it's so big What would y'all do if y'all were the old me? Get involved and you gotta give the whole thing This is no fling, this devoting Every single f**ing part of yourself No matter whatever the cards you was dealt You going all in I don't know about y'all, but I'm gone And I don't know if I'm balling or balling [Pre-Hook:] If you let me You know I could get deep Really hope you ready I'm coming through Running you That's what I do Just know that it's all for you So what you gonna choose? Afraid to say OK [Hook:] And I know I'm not gonna get in the way But I'm afraid Who I want to be is what I became But I'm ashamed Ain't no coming back Facing what I wanted But it's all f**ing weird And now I'm really scared