Landmine Spring - Doctrine lyrics

What I wanted Well I think I lost myself today I need direction Can someone throw me down a line I can't get connection I'm tired of being lost inside The hell i'm in And i'd give everything to shed This worn out skin My development got flawed today I'd stride if I could Hopelessness take charge again If only I would I've joined up with insanity And nothing's right So i'll tape the windows up again to block the light But I know this I said I know this I've never been so weak I've got to find something else to rely on My reason never seemed so loud No words This disappearance has left me Fractured again Plastic I've never been so proud in my mind I feel this But my eyes can't see this I lost the will to live today Did the line get crossed And I hardly recognise myself But at what cost Too many words too little time To make sense of it all And it maybe all just meaningless I can't recall