L.J. - Trapped lyrics

[Verse 1] I knew a kid that was so twisted in the brain He would sit alone and talk to always sniffin' his c**aine Was imprisoned by shame, had so many insecurities He had so much potential, but he felt like he was worthless see Couldn't shake the damn depression, he would lack expression A blank look is all I got when I would ask a question Self-destructive, he was banging hoes without protection Slapped a couple up and got some charges filed against him Swore that he would quit, but fell in love with his addiction Carrying syringes anywhere that he would visit He was scared and he was timid, so embarra**ed of his image And when I tried to help him, he didn't care or even listen Thought he had it all, but now he's losing faith Wakes up in the days like "what the f** is there to do today" Like a game of chess he's feeling cornered with no moves to make Now he's out of options, I don't think think that he'll recuperate [Hook] This pain ain't gonna fall on my face no more And I can't breathe when I'm drowning Too many bets for me to settle the score I feel like I can't move on without this Put your picture on my wall And I can't even watch you I'm too caught up in my own regrets But I won't forget that they locked you [Verse 2] He'd stay at home until his room became a prison Incarcerated daily, unable to make decisions Put his pen down to the paper to start crafting [?], he really had raw talent, but lately been all challenges Life has been off balance Everytime he'd drop a rhyme, all his homies would start laughing That's when he lost pa**ion, he started hanging with crack addicts Hit the lowest point in his life and had a crash landing To wanna put the effort in, he'd rather half-a** it Constantly at war with himself, now that's a bad habit He's doing things that you never would imagine Pimping underage women just to keep his paper stack And if his mother only knew what her only son has become She would probably lock herself in a room, pick up a gun Struggle that she worked as a single mother to raise him Whoever would've thought that her son was the spawn of Satan [Hook] This pain ain't gonna fall on my face no more And I can't breathe when I'm drowning Too many bets for me to settle the score I feel like I can't move on without this Put your picture on my wall And I can't even watch you I'm too caught up in my own regrets But I won't forget that they locked you [Verse 3] He's getting worse, falling deeper into depression Threatening his life 'cause he's feigning for the attention Forgetting all the people that love him he would be affecting In his mind it didn't mean nothing he's slowly reaching for his weapon Before he went to grab it, he made a final confession Whimpered and cried and then he said with expression "I hate you for everything that was wrong in my life Do you know what growing up without a father was like? Every girl I ever lost took my heart with a knife And you're expecting me to run, shake it off with a smile I'm not made for this I can't take this sh** my motivation is crumbled All I know is somebody has got to pay for this" He goes silent, he never crashed his bed Tried to roll an L, but he ripped his last Zig-Zag Finally put the gun up to his head to blow this sh** back But he ain't getting out so damn easy 'cause the clip jammed [Hook] This pain ain't gonna fall on my face no more And I can't breathe when I'm drowning Too many bets for me to settle the score I feel like I can't move on without this Put your picture on my wall And I can't even watch you I'm too caught up in my own regrets But I won't forget that they locked you