Kyle Stewart (Kace) - Thoughts lyrics

[Verse 1:] Mom, I know I'd never get to say this All my life, I've been held to these braces Moving on to places Asking to my angels Where are you? And why did you had to leave? Where did you gone? What am I gonna do with this life that you breathed In me, and I'm sick of being called names I'm sick of fighting this rain How can I stand strong anymore When I know you ain't gonna be there, when I need you And I need you right now, where do I go now that I seek you? Strengthen me mom and lemme reach you You didn't gave up on me so how could I leave you? Lemme tell ya you should've k**ed me You didn't had to go, could've drilled me Filled me with poison and should've sent me away, but no For a hope, that ain't gonna come, and I've already soaked enough Of my tears, never tried opening up your trunk Finding happiness that ain't never gonna come So I'm again held and caught up on other side of this rope And no, I don't have love for you cause I hate you the most Cause you've been the closest to me You handled me for 9 months What was that sacrifice worth of? In the dirt that you built a fortress I've been coming up like a turtle, and I know you ain't looking at me smiling, cause all I ever got up to you was whining and shouting And crying and lying Momma I need you for once, it's not my time and See mom that I need help now cause I'm finally dying! [Chorus:] I love you, more than you would've ever thought I know you love me too, more than I've could've ever got Ever and this is my life, Imma never ever leave you You died for me, and now I'm gonna come and finally please you... [Verse 2:] Dad, it's crazy to even think that you left me This upsets me, everytime that I feel you It resseructs me, pound on my chest see I'm best me you should see me now, I really wanna never be empty By the thoughts, I carry up all day By my guard, I had very much to say But you left without even looking up For once what did I paint That day, I was happy My clothes were shaggy, what about Lucy? She took a little nappy nappy You must have your day done Should've already laid gun Praying To Jesus everyday but in the end took away by Satan I've been sleeping from the start but now I'm awaken I'm feeling sh** like a raisin What my life did to me is amazing But to you, I've taken the bate and widen it, straightened I've been patient enough to see everyone leave, when finally the day's done What kinda relationship was this even With you leaving me breathing Now I'm striving for every breath, what's the grievance Concieving and leaving, I'm stuck in this deep end I'm preaching what should've stopped Long ago, now everyday I'm bleeding I'm leaving what should've rocked This world, ain't my place to be So I'm punching my way out of this clock I'm locked inside this cell with no locks on it Remember​ the day when you used to buy little goodies for me Only in the cost of your ring that you ended up pawning I saw you sacrifice with my eyes Still I chose to tell lies but now I'm strong enough To reprise with my prize I'd never got to know that Lucy I still love you, I'd never had to show that And I wonder if you still remember your big brother I wish you don't have to see me now that I've grown stubborn Learnt a lesson, that you come and go on your own Don't count on anyone, anymore, cause it's just you Now that I'm going forever with no emotions... [Chorus:] I love you, more than you would've ever thought I know you love me too, more than I've could've ever got Ever and this is my life, Imma never ever leave you You died for me, and now I'm gonna come and finally please you...