Called my brother, yelling out I fell in love and then fell out And I don't know if I can take the hit I let a stranger in my bed I pretended you were him Cause I needed to feel wanted I gotta oh, I gotta find another way I'm learning to live I'm trying to be better I'm learning to give But I don't know if I'm a giver Every day's another shot But all I do isf**it up Screaming cause I've got it too good to cry I put the medicine inside my head Apologize for all the things I said Girl it takes guts to just survive I gotta oh, I gotta find another way I'm learning to live I'm trying to be better I'm learning to give But I don't know if I'm a giver I got so much soul in my body But no one keeping me honest And whole days turn into holes in my mind I got high hopes lots of potential I'm high, broke, searching for symbols And I will not let go of what is mine