Kidcrusher - Overdose (Suicide Note) lyrics

[Verse 1: KidCrusher] This pain inside of me is so pure that it's hard to ignore I start to suffocate myself to block out all of my thoughts I'm waking up to medication, fall asleep to medication Just can't seem to stop my concentration (SHUT UP) f** it, I'm sick of myself All the bullsh** just keeps on following me And swallowing me, right after the lobotomy There's nothing left inside of me I'm just f**ing hiding me and trying to numb the pain Pill after pill after pill everyday Blowing all my money, so I can liquefy my liver Blazing up the weed, even though I don't smoke Trying sleep but I can't sleep so back to medication I don't even know if I want to live or die Laying on the floor feeling like I want to fly So I can see my dad for the very first time Would he even want to see me? Just because I'm "that guy" [Hook: KidCrusher] I want to overdose, it's just so easy to die I want to get outside of me, and really feel alive