Kevin Gilyard - Find My Way lyrics
[Chorus] No it can't be life Cause it feels like hell One foot in the streets And the other in jail And I'm just trying to find my way To a place that's a better place [VERSE 1] This can't be life - not this can't be right I ain't supposed to be sufferin I ain't supposed to be strugglin I'm supposed to get money I ain't posed' to be fumblin My situation on the rocks sh** I'm begging and bummin Like I'm searching for something And my n***as ain't helpin My old lady she know wa**up What the f** I'mma tell her I got problems and problems I could blame on the devil I been a f** up all my life Just what held it together They be like “Kevin you should pray only heaven can help ya” Family members threw in the towel Cause they feel I'mma failure I've been searching for years Trying to work through the tears Pointing this pistol at my temple It hurts to be here I pull this trigger - that I'm gripping That hurt disappear Like you heard about Gates It ain't certain or clear He held that thang Made it go bang Let it squirt in his ear Gave up on life that was given It's curtains from here [Chorus] [VERSE 2: Max Minelli] This can't be life - I get ridiculed When I spit at the fools Like I lost it - my love for this sh** Been exhausted It costed too much to floss And for who n***as gonna hate you regardless No matter what you do No this can't be life It feel more like a nightmare I tried to escape it But reality be right there I looked up at God But I think I've been disconnected Like he ain't hear my prayer Just heard it in 97 Looking back at my past Examine - try the dissection When I act out my rage Scorsese couldn't direct it The whole world is my stage Here go act 3 take 1 Shining light the camera It took pressure to make one Trying to move up like elevators Gazing up at that penthouse suite Whoever got plans to devastate us Really must not know sh** bout me I tongue kissed and finger f**ed my haters Cursed with pain - and reversed my pain Life or d**h I chased that sh** So I went ahead and burst that sh** [Chorus] [VERSE 3] OK - I'm - back to the drawing board I - gaze in the pastor's face I - know - God gave up on me So - I probably be the last to say Don't even show respect at church I look around - when the pastor pray All my loved ones pa**ed away Not they fault - so I had to say Yes I'mma sit and be sad today Might smoke blunts like half the day My probation - my conviction Main intent was to graduate That ain't sh** though Got potential - and credential - no job Most of me - been hopelessly - unfocused People close to me - say I ain't sh** Cause I ain't rich Hoes ain't never find me cute and Usually was rude to me I only went to school to eat My uncles beat me up for stealing clothes And ain't give food to me This can't be life - I hate my life Hardships - losing me Fake friends - using me Coke game - abusing me Or maybe it's my pride I'm like inside I got this drive But this drive'll get me shot Or prolly get me caught up Or I'll be selling work When selling work will get me locked up [Chorus]