Kevin Devine - Big, Bad Man lyrics

1, 2, 3, 4 I was a big bad man I picked at you like cotton candy I talked my talk, made you feel lucky And broke your heart when I was ready Yeah, I was a big bad man And I strummed my slow sad song I felt your lashes flutter for me I let my smile spread out sneaky My chesire cat act sped your heartbeat And I strummed my slow sad song And I made my train wreck mess I sunk to hell and I dragged you with me I grieved my way to coke and whiskey I shamed my father, I scared my family When I made my train wreck mess When you'd sleep you sing my name into your pillow A blue note cast to calm our burning bed Your helpless heart dreamt my voice rising up to meet you And held the plain truth hostage in your head You see I never raised the ransom And I never argued over terms I just let you and your song lie there and burn And now I think long hard thoughts About the years I can't return you, The truth, it took too long to tell you There's no excuse for how I did you When I think my long hard thoughts, When I think my long hard thoughts