Kenny Gioia - Tortures of the Damned lyrics

I hate myself More than I ever let on I'm burned out at 22 I lived too fast and I loved too much and I'll die too young But I chose this cup that I drank from Knew what I was getting into But I couldn't let out what I had to keep in I'm ashamed of myself and unspeakable sins That I've committed and: [Chorus] I've made mistakes But I'll find my way There's no explanation for The things I've failed at before They can't hold my hand It just hurts to be a man Through the tortures of the damned If I only had an axe I'd sever the ties I've made with the world Maybe I can be a stranger In a strange place If I start now, maybe I can be saved If I only had a mask I'd cover these bleeding eyes They're bloodshot now but they'll be black by dawn If I wake up now I can be pure again [Chorus] Look at me now, I'm on the tracks with my back towards the last train leaving town. [x4] [Chorus x2]