Kaden Arsenault - Lost everything and let everyone down. lyrics

Okay, here we go Even though i’m high, even though i’m hella baked right now But i keep loving everybody I keep bringing everybody into my life fu*king everybody up, fu*king myself up leaving everyone by themselves Wrecking everybody’s life right now Going to hell Gods not responding to me, only the devil is How could i just leave everybody behind me How could i just realize not everybody’s gonna come back to me Yeah How am i ever going to leave it, how am i ever gonna leave my Ex-girlfriend alone She always meant the world to me She broke me in half, now everybody’s leaving me behind now Everybody’s going off, everybody’s leaving Everybody’s going off to do there own thing but i can do my own I gotta think about everything before i do it now Now i can't believe i fu*ked everything up She’s lost, she’s leaving, she’s gone Yeah But i’m leaving ella, leaving maddy, leaving everybody behind me Only my true day 1 bros Yeah I can't believe nobody could ever believe me I don’t know who to trust nowadays, i don’t know who trust I can't put my trust out there, but then i lose it and everybody trusts me but then i fu*k it up, everybody goes away, everybody leaves someday But i can't believe that i’m leaving everybody alone, i’m pushing everybody away right now And i don’t know what’s going on with me right now but i’m in a fu*ked up mindset right now I’m losing everybody behind me now i gotta go by myself Imma miss everybody who’s been there for me, my day 1’s And gotta go do my own thing now, i gotta figure out what’s going on with me I don’t why everybody says i need to get a therapist but i don’t need one This is my therapy making music, making live Looking around you, seeing everybody’s fu*king leaving everybody’s going away But i can't live without everybody right now I’m going to hell, gods leaving Gods not answering, god can't believe me right now I fu*ked everything up, i fu*ked ella’s mind up, i fu*ked everybody’s mind up I fu*ked everyone of my ex-girlfriends up, all my ex-girlfriends think i’m a fu*king prick now I can't do anything about it right now, but i wish i could Everything i used to like about myself, but now i hate about myself I’m doing everything hard now, i’m going back to my old ways I can't get out of this place now, i’m too deep in I’m losing everybody’s interest in me Everybody's leaving