K. Sparks - 1985 lyrics

[Verse 1: K. Sparks] It's in the midnight it's nothing but problems all I see in my life I grew up in the ghetto taking cover from drive byes time flies see my older brother Tryna maintain do the same thing, need to gang bang leave or slang caine And naturally see success hard to penetrate Me and Calvin tired of swatting roaches from our dinner plate Momma was a winner wait board of education Lost souls at the cross roads of our generation Fast forward see my brother went to college But things worsened he came back a different person Seeing pills around the house and they ain't prescription No rhyme or reason dealing with addiction It's kinda hard tryna keep the faith in God When somebody that you love is just a shell of their former self [Verse 2: K. Sparks] Jamaica Hospital see my brother in the clinic And we got the diagnosis that he bi polar schizophrenic I'm feeling cynic won't admit to enhance ya Few months later momma diagnosed with cancer Strangest feeling see its hard to get Angers building up inside me he's a architect Feeling cursed so I curse when it hurt Cuz at first see I thirst for a burst from the worse Sicker with the thirst made sick new dedication Liquor was my first aid kit self medication Drowning all my sorrows while I'm downing all these bottles But the truth it tends to follows they'll be back again tomorrow Tomorrow true love will never falter Early morning momma at the church at the alter For both her sons mentally that we can get away Live for inspiration and we'll live to see a brighter day so we all pray [Verse 3: K. Sparks] I live for better days just to help a better nation Live for clever ways of even better conversation Live for all my family understand keep it true See I found my peace in God I help you find your peace too Live to help my family and I live to help others Live to help my sisters and I live to help my brothers Living full of purpose with a life that's on the surface Stay achieving while we breathing gotta die to things that's worthless Die to jealousy and everything to hinder visions Die to all the false images up on your television Die to liquor stores fast who*es that apply pressure And fast food ask dude with high blood pressure Die to reality television Did I mention that the irony the fakest thing on television It don't console me and not too many know me I'm dying to the old me that's what the Lord told me