K-Deep - Outro lyrics

Instrumental: Flowers by Madlib [Verse] I try and be upbeat (I try and be upbeat…) I try remain comfy (I try remain comfy…) But somedays it's inescapable how agitated I get A million and one things are racing through my head Nauseated/ yep/ but with my pen I'm sick I know that but that comfort doesn't come as quick As I'd expect it to I'm sceptical to what the future holds But still behold the spectacle No point in chasing steps/ I make them I'll take a breath/ clear my head and view what's irking me And work out why I'm seeing red or feeling blue Refuse to feed the next demonic thought that's sought to poison me I'll fight to keep my soul in tact/ I seem as blessed as I can be My friends/ my girl/ my family And I'll be damned if I rebuke the Lord for all this torment mentally Was born an entity who refused to crawl into his bed and sleep That was two or four/ this week it hit me that I'm 21 With thoughts of jealousy/ paranoia pinching me Latched and caught in grips and seized A year ago I'd be the one who would succumb To every clutch but now it's backing off I'm breaking free/ I'll carry on remembering my past mistakes No longer stepping on those shards again I learnt a lot I've changed and that's my word to God Not Charlemagne/ I'm hardly Drake But nothing was the same when I was young and dumb And tryna carve a name out for myself When I had doubts for myself and I was shouting for help Drowning in this swimming pool and weeping at the deep-end All the time I'd been at school I hated it ‘Til I learnt to be more sociable Someone people could approach like Cool, I need your help/ I need advice I need your thoughts/ I need your eyes I need your words/ I need your mic I need an arm on which to lay my head and cry I'm still that guy… But still I'm far from sane with half a brain And can't believe that I could even last a day But I've been told I'm good Been told I'm chill/ been told I'm cute Been told I'm sick/ been told I will make it It means so much for me to hear it ‘Cause my work keeps me coherent I should be rolling with no fear at all But I'm scared as hell Broken/ soaked in soulful tears of joy and pain The type you don't see but that's just life You know me/ I'll make the best of it A testament to my will and faith I write it mostly in the hope that I can feel at ease ‘Cause I get shocked when I do bad But still get wounded when I do good Still look at my reflection saying “do you” Those who do me wrong will do me wrong A depressing fact but don't be someone else Thinking that's the end of that I stood my ground throughout the bullsh** I've encountered And I'm glad and thankful for the strength I have to be the best I can It's stressful man Guess now would be the perfect time to end the track