K.A.A.N. - Stress lyrics

[Chorus] I confess, I'm a mess All I ever do is stress I'm depressed than a mo'f**ing n***a [x3] With a handful of pills trying to numb all of my pain Tell me, do you motherf**ers even feel it? Tell me, do you even feel it? I've been writing all these records with resentment Tryin' to find the happiness I never had, happiness I never had I wish I could wake up early in the morning and realize the person that I really am, person that I really am All the f** I ever really feel is pain And I don't think you could even understand You could never understand And all the f** I ever really feel is pain And I don't think that you could even understand You could never understand And I don't think that you could even understand Nah [Verse 1] Hold up Cause I don't think you'll ever get it Dismissing all of my issues and tell me to be submissive Attentive whenever rappin' I focus upon the tedious I resemble my father, that's if we're speaking of temperaments Temporarily out of it Falling off of an ottoman Noddin', bobbin' and weavin' I will depart out of my moccasins While I swallow klonopins and I'm taking some mescaline, ketamine and excedrin Ain't no need to exaggerate But I'll elaborate I am chemically imbalanced and k**in' my serotonin from using d** with no moderation For daily sedation, I should be placed under observation The fact that I'm faded is actually embarra**ing I see this as a vice and I'm using it as a crutch But if I'm being honest with you I feel like I fell in love with the thought of me dying young and not reaching my full potential cause They never realize you're great until you die, ah Murder it all, I want to appease I bet that I'm really a beast I never release I'm giving the people a feast the way that I'm k**ing the beat You loving it all enjoying the ride I bet that you feeling the vibe Is that what you want? Fulfilling your needs? Now give me a minute so I can proceed, Lord Now this is not the life I really wanna lead And all my pain is transparent; It's not that easy to see I used to wanna be happy, it never actually happened So I been feeling the same just trying to live with this thing [Chorus] Tough luck, n***a, keep your f**ing head up They kicked you while you was down and now you refuse to get up You medicating every single emotion that you feeling You need to be in the dark to acknowledge all of your problems You never speak of your issues unless you writing a song or two You're living with depression; its real and you f**ing know its true I'm guessing that it stems from the time when nobody noticed you But that was years ago and you still stuck on the same sh** You need to get a grip You dope as f** and people tell you it You need to be a man and start a**erting all your confidence You're f**ing 24 and you still can't accept a compliment You need to make a change But I know I'm stating the obvious And I wanna be better, but it's never that easy Very vivid depiction of pictures that I've been painting I promise you'll feel my pain in a second So ill explain: Cause a couple years ago I couldn't even find a friend to call And now you hit me up like “I'm really loving your record, dawg” And people never listen; I'm speaking bout being restless I say I'm cutting my wrists and you telling me that its dope I know you praying that I blow so we can 'all get rich' “And if you make it, you can take me with you man That would be it cause I've been down from the beginning Boy, I knew you was the sh** Remember when I said that you would be the one to make a hit?” Hell nah, I don't recall s** a motherf**ing dick, b**h [Chorus]