K.A.A.N. - My Mind (Cameras Remix) lyrics

Yeah, Lawd Uh huh, eh Alright, hm I got stress and animosity that's running through my Terrified I'll never make it wasted all this f**ing I got stress and animosity that's running through my I'm terrified I'll never make it wasted [Verse] I can't lie Gotta tell the truth and to be honest with you my pa**ion faded I cannot recall the reason why I rap When my pain remains and I'm still lonely I am not famous I'm a local n***a With a loss of focus How did that happen Dropped out of school I don't need college Living with my mom and my f**ing father And when they used to fight That sh** would keep me up I got no sleep in my adolescence And you wonder why that motherf**er odd and now My grades slim, now my teacher wanna talk it out But what the f** is there to speak about when every other day I'm coming home to another World War Don't nobody give a f** about n***a or the pain that you feeling inside That you would really confide And I would never collage A different life than the one that I live And I was giving my all With everything that I did I was tryna paint a couple pictures for these kids To see what I saw When seated in my seat Cause you living in a [?] And everything is sweet You ain't even got a care in the world said it must be nice With a bunch of materials in your house that distracts from the fact that you're really all alone I tried to make sense of the way that I've been guided Scarred from my pain no real reason to hide it Lost in this world with [?] a**ignment And I can feel the negative energy in my silence Meditating the moment to minimalize violence Find the purpose in life I feel like it's my a**ignment I tried to help a handful of people with the rhyming The reality is don't nobody even get it Insinuating the flow Disintegrating my words I [?] the hearse and regulated the verse I've elevated my worth Disseminating the search Preach to the poor minds I'm nothing more than a hypocrite A theoretical lyricist literally k**ing it I came in the game with a dissertation You can savor the flavor The sound is amazing In love with the rhythm I give em a safe haven Damn! Lawd [Chorus] I got stress and animosity that's running through my mind I'm terrified I'll never make it wasted all this f**ing time And I got stress and animosity that's running through my mind I'm terrified I'll never make it wasted all this f**ing time [Verse] Every dime All of my time it was spent Invested inside of the craft You probably couldn't even understand the effort that a n***a giving When he put it in your mind and speak it into existence And with the way I'm working for certain I need distance And I would never quit admitted you with persistence I'm giving you a vision of a hideous condition with the lyrics that I've written and song about my convictions I never stop I cannot be complacent I need to get sober my soul is sedated I've made a rendition of cynical sued em an intricate poet composed a prophecy pardon my pain is apart of the problem I pray and I ponder my peace is the departed ridiculous way I can deal with the grief Contrary do you believe you would've never beseech And they were never on the level of I I've found a way to make it clear that I was trying to survive My life in each line Describing these times My future is looking bleak And I am mentally weak I seek to find wisdom Knowledge above all nonsense I'm aware that the pain don't end I won't break up and The spirit of Amen treated the record of my past and telling em my sins Damn! Lawd!