k** the Intellectuals - Open Letter to Myself (From Bed) lyrics

[Verse] I am waking up to face reality But I never want to face anything ever again And it's painfully beautiful that I am alive That I can feel your movement away Like push pins in my feet You've forced my eyes open and made me see All of the beauty that is you in front of me And then it's apparent that you are lost and you are free And you won't stay with me in this ephemerality It's cinematic gold You'll never get old You said, "We have something timeless" I don't want to time it