Justin Vernon - Sides lyrics

So I heard it from a friend that there was this guy that I should talk to So you let me in, opened doors underneath a crucifix statue So I explained to you, I was having troubles getting through And I was thinking of my end, it was just the sky I kept looking to You said "I'm on your side“ I thanked you and I cried I almost died I was making strides, I was showing up every Sunday But I was still confused about the pain that had invaded me And I'm still wondering if my soul's worth it to anybody You a**ured me that the congregation would hear me They said "we're on your side, There's an unconditional kingdom that stands up high He lets all believers in through the forgiveness of sin“ So I explained to you what was the cause of my suffering See it was a while ago, there was an alleyway and there was a group of men When they hurt me they whispered that the gays had to pay When they beat me all of my worth was taken away See I needed you and your knowing of the lord's own way through And I was unfolded, I believed there was something he could do But you just hung your head and told me it was the door I needed to be going to "Son there's just principles, I cannot be the one who helps you“ You said "I'm not your side You're probably paying for your sins I don't understand your kind, it isn't mine“ Father your cold heart's a smoking gun Your cross ain't no where I want to hang my hope from There's still something I half believe, that's why I'm leaving this world behind me See my s**uality don't have nothing to do with my integrity When I get into that land, I'll lead with the one who wears the crown He will say "I'm on your side The side that's kind Judge not what's right In time you'll find you're left“