Julien Baker - Favor lyrics

We took the forty down to Visit the family, and I Told you the only kin I knew Was who I could see from the gurney I used to think about myself Like I was a talented liar Turns out that all my friends were Trying to do me a favor I always wanna tell the truth But it never seems like the right time To be serious enough I’m sorry I’m making myself cry How long do I have until I’ve spent up everyone’s goodwill? Sat on the hood, out all night Trying to scrape together change You pulled a moth out From the grill of your truck Saying it’s a shame How come it’s so much easier With anything less than human Letting yourself be tender? Well, you couldn’t make me do it It doesn’t feel too bad, but it Doesn’t feel too good, either Just like a nicotine patch, it Hardly works, then it’s over Who put me In your way to find? And what right had you Not to let me die? Ooh, but did I even know What I was asking for? If I had my way I’d have missed you more Than you missed me You missed me You missed me You missed meee