Back inside I left myself with feeling I've been running form all my life It was a message that was given to me Through dysfunctional family Mom had to drink to take herself from the hole She dug herself in too deep And left little of the torture behind dad had a knack for biding time He took a walk after leaving my head in a place I had to struggle just to get it out He'll never know the things that I know The things I had to do But did I let it go Smashing all my demons rising The mother of saints I hate who are Now that I can see things for the way they are They tell me I'm not good enough I won't believe in the cutting of words Don't want to live in this f**ed up world I made a vow not to give to a thing called fear As I exterminate every feeling It was a message to you my brother Looks like it's one or the other Shrouded in a cell of violence The awakening of the feelingless now