Judicator - My Fantasy Destroyed lyrics

I walk alone at night, hoping that I'll find Epiphany or more, a greater understanding Always knew that I'd be alone Never thought that I'd find a home Home, a different meaning Who is solitary Always knew that I'd die alone Never thought that I'd find someone Someone to be by my side To help me find the fleeting light Full moon shine--I'm swimming in my deepest fears Blackest skies--a highway jam that's in my head Nevermind--something is here Crashing waves--I'm treading in the blackened waves Flowing blood--relentless routing in my head Pounding fear--time to reveal Feeling now that my brother's tale Doesn't have a happy end End to a broken line This wretched soul, observer Always knew I was special, I I'm taken back by By the surreal feelings here Almost like a dreamworld here Glowing moon--it's almost like a lucid dream Lurking doom--or is it just a catalyst? Nevermind--time to go back Gentle wind--I look up to his room alight So exposed--I'm standing naked in the rain Now return--to numbing d**h Cancer leaves families exposed Rips, cracks into canyon walls Step by step up to his room Lying there, mother beside Solo: Tony Fantasy is torn apart Reality is f**ing stark Stark in the face of tears Eyes that show our fears Mom caresses withered hands Hold on tight and pray loud Loud is the comfort of men Yet they're silent in their pride Indoor breeze--this surely cannot happen now Earned your keys--into another bleaker world Blood and bone--you won't escape Only smoke--emergency to save his life Without fire--no longer am I here alone Earned your keys--time to grow up