Jude - I Will Not Die lyrics

It only hurts me when i'm awake It seems to die with dreaming And there's only so much that i can fake When my whole life's careening down I will not die It only k**s me 'cause i'm alive And living this disaster And it's all i can do now to survive I live to beat my master down I will not die Down i will not die When i'm well i long to be Only in love with you But i guess i'll never be whole And you know it's true It does not stop me that we all die I know this trip's to slaughter But if only i could let me cry I feel the healing water roll down I will not die Down i will not die Down i will not die