John Legend - New York Post lyrics

A part of me was so scared of losing you. I knew I messed up. I pleaded guilty and begged for forgiveness I lost my dignity. I cried my eyes out. I didn't have any chances to get sympathy. All I got was grief from you. I know I did wrong. I put my hands up for my actions. Never thought it would go that far. I did wrong I admit. I still wanted you back. Why did I lie to you. Because I know you would react.. All I wanted was attention. Which I never got from you. I'm deeply sorry for lying to you. I had facebook boy mates. And wanted to go holiday with girlfriends.. Did I really do wrong. Why do you have to treat me so bad. Do you really love me. Or do you like controlling me. When would you ever realise.. Do I really deserve to be disrespected by you. Why do I let you treat me this way.. I can do so much better. It hurts so much. Every day and night I cried. I cried in my sleep I cried in public. I cried to you. So desperately wanted a last chance. Begged and begged on my knees. Asked for forgiveness. I didn't get even get one look from you. You mentally tortured me. Physically abused me. Made me feel devoted only to you. You made me ill. What did I really do so wrong. To get punished in that way. Now that you come back to me. Makes me feel sick. You have so much power over me. You control my living. I can't breathe I want air now.