Joell Ortiz - Goodbye lyrics

[Verse 1: Joe Budden] Oy yeah Beautiful I remember it like it just happened I could've sworn it was a dream But in reality it hit me like a nightmare Or at least that's how it seemed I just got a grip on our relationship We was ironing things out, started picking up steam And when we didn't need it is when it all got heated And we both said some things that we probably didn't mean Then God intervened, guess more was at stake Thought we left nothing over, he put more on the plate She came home from the doctor with news I've been wanting Says family was incoming, she's pregnant, twins coming But that's gotta be a lie She sighed, couldn't stop the tears coming from her eyes That birth control she on, for them it's suicide As long as it's still inside, two of them wouldn't survive Hard turn from memorable to cynical Picturing clothes for what would've been identical Similar outfits, similar names My deceased kids' ultrasound in a frame So I'm deprived of my chance to be a better dad Staring at my twins that I never had I shed a tear, looking up in the sky Even though y'all just got here, goodbye [Hook: Ming] Goodbye, goodbye, so long, farewell But it's not the end of the chapter Goodbye, goodbye, so long, farewell I'll see you again in the afterlife [Verse 2: Crooked I] My biological s**m donor, didn't wanna be a daddy So he hopped in his Caddy and turned corners on us Turned on us out the clear blue His last memory of his son is seeing me through his rearview I still love him yo, but I love his brother more My uncle showed me love no one could know Young and poor with a tougher road To suffer hunger was nothing but Unc' would hold Us down, help moms lift the motherload I got grown and I used to wonder what it would be like to speak to pops as a grown man He provided that feeling, told me to take my career into my own hands He was there when I had no fans My cellphone rings, and after I answer A voice says "Your uncle's been diagnosed with cancer" Worst news in my life Him and chemo going 12 rounds with a disease and they're both losing the fight I'm rushing up to Cedars-Sinai Praying for a miracle, I don't wanna see my idol die Before he did, the look in his eyes Said "Even though you just got here, goodbye" [Hook: Ming] Goodbye, goodbye, so long, farewell But it's not the end of the chapter Goodbye, goodbye, so long, farewell I'll see you again in the afterlife [Bridge: Ming] I'll see you again in the afterlife Someday in heaven we will reunite The flesh disappears but the soul survives Till next time, my friend, farewell, goodbye [Verse 3: Joell Ortiz] I walked in your daughter's house, knowing that you gone But still looking out the corner of my eye, hoping you're on the couch That call felt like I was beef that had got shot up Ironic, I was on tour with Tech N9ne and Slaughterhouse D tried to talk to me, Crystal rubbed my back, as they was pouring out I caught the next thing soaring out Now I'm in the air, in the midwest somewhere They said turbulence was severe, I don't know what they talking bout I ain't feel a bump, body numb, mind drifting I'm sniffling, asthma acting up, I'm whistling I'm wishing my mother's face looked so much different I'm kissing my son, my aunt pacing in the kitchen My vision blurry, still I saw your face clear What a loss, this time I did more than waste beer Michelle's strong, she held on, we got all the way there Then we walked in, she fell on the floor, this ain't fair You was the voice when I considered them thoughts that ain't clear Hey granny, I was fifth row at the Grammy's An award they ain't hand me, but I sat behind Will And right in front of Wayne, and got seen by the family I miss the early morning convos, believe me Regis on the TV, and the best baked ziti But you had an all white affair, grandpa's all fly Even though you been got there, goodbye [Hook: Ming] Goodbye, goodbye, so long, farewell But it's not the end of the chapter Goodbye, goodbye, so long, farewell I'll see you again in the afterlife