Joe Budden - Different Love lyrics

[Prod. by 8 Bars] [Verse 1] It go - off of my sabbatical Took a few years cause Slaughter is what I had to do Which only brings me to now and I ought to be erratical I say that cause my autobiographical is more so just a graph of you I ain't mad, you did more than what I asked of you As for me, I did less than what I could've So though we were a hit I had to cancel that show And now my standing solo, I'll be amped when she not a ho But what you doing right now is real commendable Take strength to do Cause between us there's some deep root stare I gave you the best dick you ever got in your life And stupid me thought it would be enough to keep you there I thought you loved football I was running through the hole with the stiff arm But got disarmed, guess it was just harm I ain't need to f**, I was looking for a peer They say once you stop looking what you looking for appears You were stronger than I pictured you, much stronger than me And almost just as strong as John And John, oh, that's just a friend of my moms With tubes coming out his nose, but sh** I never knew why But he was born with his heart in the right side of his chest No, for real, his heart is in the right side of his chest Doctors confused, they must do what they can do But impute and say it ain't on the right side of his chest Scared he might die in his sleep, deep Every time he coughs wonders if it's a cough or a symptom Us will get better later He gon' live his whole life waking up every morning to a respirator So I don't never say what I can't do If he can be happy with life than n***a I can too While Jose wanna die Ain't tell nobody, but eyeing his eyes feel I should probably identify I said everyday he lives with pain and want to end it Something's wired wrong in your brain, you gotta mend it Had a bad breakup and let it expose dude But if she was getting you high then she would get you low too So who's there to wait on me? Y'all just get it off y'all and put the weight on me n***a look me in my eyes, it was amazing to me And said she don't understand you not as crazy as me You got God, n***a, I'm the most mentally flawed n***a You not even built to withstand what all I've endured, n***a You know sh** about the thoughts in my head Or the strength I need daily just to get out of bed Just to open my eyes, n***a, open your eyes The words spoken of wise, you just know it in disguise We can end this right here, I got nothing more to say to you You ain't never met another f**ing n***a crazier Blank stare, couldn't believe 'em Cat chastised me cause I got help when you need some I can give less than a f** and not a damn I never be apologetic over who I am I'm the same me, nothing changes when the riches do But n***as wanna s** you dry just like the b**hes do They enter your mentions, s**s to be the center of attention When you can't even center your attention Yeah, so I'm f**ing out of frustration They love every second and accuse me of persuasion Jam was a cancer to me, I had to rid it Red got in her feelings fast, but won't admit it Dawn I was bored then, never really smithen V got threatened by the thought of competition Malo wanna f** all day, don't know how She why I got a Viagra in my wallet right now Step kept it simple, loved me for my mental B got a n***a, but she used me as her rental And you, you just give me resistance Say you needed comfort zone, for you it's distance I tell 'em all I'm not available emotionally They start giving me advice like they coaching me I don't even ask it It's something about bipolar sociopath sh** They just find it attractive Yeah, anti-social, but I mingle now But I've been arguing much more since I've been single, how? Tell me is this a relationship or just a f**ship? Whatever situation it is it's all f** shift I'll admit it, I might love her a bit differently As for them they'll all love to see a different me Some cried to me, some are begging for it Someone'll see that change, but not be present for it You just act so frightened Ignoring all logic now, she won't buy in Even in your absence my feelings are heightened Though I know some love's lost, it's not on my end It's not mine, it's not mine at all