Joe Budden - All Of Me lyrics

[Emanny] I give you my all, but it seems like that's not enough Now you can get all of me A lot of things have changed from what I see Is this the way its supossed to be [Joe Budden] Are you in that mood yet, one mo' 'gain ARE YOU IN THAT MOOD YET Look, they say tomorrow's not promised, but if it was I wouldn't get open Wouldn't get souped, them sh**'s was made to be broken 'Member comin' up dudes talkin' 'bout hoes, boastin' I was just a Juvenile movin in slow motion I dropped outta school to be a dude with mad j**elry Once I got it sh** wasn't even cool to me I dreamt of condos and video vixens Until I learned most girls in videos is pidgeons I just wanted the world to see that I was for real with it Wanted a deal, I got it and couldn't deal with it I want me and my old homeboys to still kick it I wish they saw me as Mouse and not a meal ticket Let the beat play, I wish I could see a day wit no he say, she say, just wanna see Trey Wanna play the hood and not f** with the toasters Middle child, wish me and my brother was closer I wanna scream at her, catch myself before I start to And then remember it takes two people to argue All she do is provoke me, all I do is diss her All I did was shake her, she say that I hit her She just takin' everythin' I say out of context I'm tryin' not to black, I'm like a n***a with a complex Was mad as a f**, didn't even show it Yesterday was better off, didn't even know it Complete role reversal so it's useless these days TV got real, music went fake, please help her for God's sake When I proposed to the game I figured life was merry Five years later I'm feelin' like Tyler Perry Maybe I'm exhausted, maybe I just lost it Maybe I should pick up a pen and try n' force it Same old story, guts and no glory, they tryna low ball me, do him like Joe Torre I reintroduced myself to the world: I'm Jerz I'm an artist, I paint pictures, I don't rhyme words More than a rapper I pay attention to detail But how I do in retail tells me if I prevail Leonardo ain't seen these trials and tribulations Foul situations with some mild stipulations I feel like being an addict is a curse It's somethin' 'bout dude that makes bad sh** worse Look, it's three types of n***as in this world ya' know So you either goin' make sh** happen or Watch sh** happen or, not know what happened So I couldn't just sit there like, f** rappin It's dudes with problems I couldn't imagine havin' If I had to have 'em I couldn't fathom me lastin', like I used to bump into Tammy in the club Few of them, she even helped a n***a get in See a person long enough you know you bound to get fly wit 'em Care for 'em, be more than "hi" and "bye" with 'em Its been a while, I can't front like I ain't phased She was my reality check, cause we the same age I mean she put on a show that you can't stage She made the sh** sound effortless I was damn near in tears checkin' my messages I got goosebumps all over my skin She said, Mouse I highly doubt that I'll ever see you again Hope everything is well kid You see I'm just findin' out I have a brain tumor but I never felt it The doctor's giving me three weeks to live Not three weeks 'til I die, that's three weeks to give I just wanna tell you that I love you and I care I wish you all the best throughout the rest of your career And then she broke into tears I pressed seven, took the phone from my ears Sometimes the simplest of things people need it But I ain't call back in fear of being speechless What was I to put her at ease with I picked a real bad time to be strategic I think my life's bad, picking up the pieces Some folk already got they appointment to see Jesus In this world full of diseases I've learned not to bite my tongue or have seizures Depression tells me I s** So I reply, I ain't here cause I fell down, I'm here cause I got up And then I'm goin' back and forth with Ransom sh** came outta nowhere, was real random According to him, I'm responsible for Jerz too I never helped n***as, how the f** you think they heard you Motherf**a's got a lot of nerve, dude I was the n***a believed in you spittin' Had to con the industry just so they would listen But go 'head, you just gon' rep yourself How was you protecting me, you can't protect yourself Keep the lies to a minimal, just read your interview I can't help but ask what's gotten into dude Media trainin' but he don't know how that go It'd help you come across not soundin' like an a**hole In my past though been to jail, I ain't enjoy it So why would I stand behind the mic and exploit it I ain't ig'nant, just because I exercise spiritually They try to ignore how I exercise lyrically I thought I had a great job Back when n***as loved the culture, wasn't in it for the money like a A-Rod Even when I'm spitting 'bout current events Its a sublime sayin', who's more current than him So I'm wonderin', if a higher power tryna under-man When you shoot for the stars, sometimes your gun'll jam I ain't been to Summer Jam I learned from Lupe: when you dumb it down its just harder to understand 2008, foes is still near me So you can think I'm tight as fu*k, I'm still weary The Geto Boys say its all in the mind Certain wounds only heal over time No shame in my game, no pain, no gain And since I ain't see a prophet I figured God would stop it Waitin' on a alley, n***as just won't lob it Still a risk taker let me put it in words Can't steal second base and keep your foot on first Been about ten years since I was high off the angel Now I'm walkin' side by side with an angel In front of my eyes that prize keep gettin' dangled But can't grab at it, my pride is being strangled Workin' shorty's nerves like a personal trainer But its me, its personal, it ain't her Friends keep tellin me leave her, I won't Cause she sees somethin' in me that I don't And I see somethin' in her that ya'll won't If you never been in love don't tell me I'm wrong See I preach gratitude, she keeps an attitude Argue long enough and that sh** becomes laughable My norm now since for her it's so natural Wish I could tell her that all them n***as after you So not compatible, that we compatible Its nothin' else in this world that we would rather do Anybody out there relate to my pain Turn the music up let me know that I'm sane We broke up, b**hes was starin' at my chain Dude was f**in' you but starin' at my name But we ain't gotta entertain all that Back like we never left, we overcame all that f** who made better tacos or who's a** fatter Let's live for now, right now, none of that matters Keep bringin' it up its goin' backlash us Why am I meeting so many back-stabbers Why when I'm about to crash I go faster, past is a disaster When your house is see through, learn to close your eyes In case the Gla** shatters Just sayin', it's always a million more pages when my stupid a** keep Thinkin' I'm on the last chapter No tit for tat, I ain't equipped for that Back in New York, chit chat with a Midget Mack As I get older...I keep gettin' sick of rap Wanna call it quits, but a n***a can't picture that...