Joe Budden - Unnecessary Pain lyrics

[Hook] I still picture your affection I still hear you like we're talkin' on the phone I Still feel it Like you're right there holdin' on to me But words cannot explain We will never be us again Everything has changed Or is that just you givin' up again? More unnecessary pain [Verse 1: Joe Budden] I would ask how we ended up here, but I drove And you allowed me Or maybe it's only me that remembers it Cause you're so easily told about me But not once while we were on that road did you doubt me Played your position, writin' out our books I noticed a page missin', blame it on the age difference I see you in the club, now days you're resistant You used to get excited just to never pay admission Lookin' for the old you, wishin' sh** was normal Tried to mold you and you ended up with it on you Live around the corner, yeah we ain't even formal So I'm askin' God, why you alive and I gotta mourn you Word, I see you got a little crew now A bunch of ugly broke b**hes I know better than And I ain't tryna say them hoes usin' you Well actually who would I be kiddin'? Yes I am I see your life from far and something's off with it It's my fault and sh**, I shoulda never altered it I sold a dream when you couldn't have known the cost of it Knew my love came with a pain and I still offered it Seein' your weight loss, knowin' I'm the cause of it If that ain't my signature, then sh**, somebody forgin' it But you think I ain't hurt, like it ain't no guilt in me Like it ain't k**in' me, I'm out here on a k**in' spree A sickness, I ain't found a way to nurse it yet Like I ain't a nervous wreck, like it's no reverse effect Internal bleedin' and the cuts run deep Every time I leave one love, a loved one leaves I wish I could take the pain away, but only yours I'll be fine if I remain this way See I deserve whatever punishment I get You could sentence me to years Of hearin' my vic's voice even when nothin' is there [Hook] I still picture your affection I still hear you like we're talkin' on the phone Still feel it Like you're right there holdin' on to me But words cannot explain We will never be us again Everything has changed Or is that just you givin' up again? More unnecessary pain [Verse 2: Joe Budden] I done gone so long not givin' a f** That it's no longer erratic, now it's a normal habit Even when I go my way, I gotta have it Bury me with my sweats on and b**hes in the casket All the waiters and words, I let 'em loom on Every verse real enough to write it on my tombstone And so you know how real that paranoia be Even make me think my demise is avoidin' me The sick part is I withstand that abuse Long as the fans are amused, am I a man or a muse? Never sugarcoat it when I hand it to the youth Fell from all over the world, and always landed in the booth I hold music in such a high regard that To this day I still feel like it's destiny And to these fans that I once gave my life for I gotta tell you that it's not much left in me Yeah, and not that it's growin' old But years of bearin' my soul is takin' it's toll Took a father from his son, but is it best that way? I'm so f**ed up inside I can't regret that Trey Hold my head up high at the gates after my time's up They say you saved somebody's life by givin' mine up Wouldn't be the first time that I went without Chased my true love so much that I resent it now You can put this in the scriptures like it's sacred To live with it, but hate it is to giveth then to take it Goin' through the motions, it'll strip a n***a naked I guess it's for a cause if all the kids are gonna play it Trust me, I ain't been the same yet You'll stop and stare any time you see a trainwreck And I'll take whatever punishment they give You can sentence me to years Of hearin' that fan's voice even when nothin' is there [Hook] I still picture your affection I still hear you like we're talkin' on the phone Still feel it Like you're right there holdin' on to me But words cannot explain We will never be us again Everything has changed Or is that just you givin' up again? More unnecessary pain [Bridge] Still learnin' to live with People coming in and out my life The ones who matter show it over time That's why they always stay on my mind So I live in reality Nobody else matters to me but you, you, you Why try to hide the truth? [Hook] I still picture your affection I still hear you like we're talkin' on the phone Still feel it Like you're right there holdin' on to me But words cannot explain We will never be us again Everything has changed Or is that just you givin' up again? More unnecessary pain I'm tried of feeling this I gotta live with this