Jerrin Jaramillo - Finger On The Trigger lyrics

[Verse 1 - Futuristic:] I got my finger on the trigger What if n***as really want me gone for good It wouldn't be that hard Everyday I tell the world, every single place that we are I've been trying to be a star, but the hate come with it They don't get it, I'm a do it to myself before anybody else Swear to God that I'm ready for this sh** to be finished But would anybody care? Would anybody care? Would anybody cry? Anybody do the same? Would anybody die, a little bit inside I've been digging in my mind, everything is for a reason That's what they say about Jesus, I don't believe it Cause the people that I need the most, always end up leaving And this uncertainty's been irking me This love I had is gone, I hate the life that I'm living I'm wishing I could move on, I'm everything that I hated I'm everything that is wrong, I don't know if I'm a be here By the time you hear this song and it all falls down And it all falls down and I hate this town I remember rejection and it made it's rounds And I hate the sound of your f**ing voice Cause it haunts my dreams And I just can't sleep and it's not by choice And I just can't breathe, everytime you speak And I lie to hurt and I say it's love And one time it was, how things have changed I'm all about me, whatever happened to us Cause we don't seem close, I ain't close to my folks Ain't close to my bros, but I'm close to these hoes They come and go, I'm all alone [Hook - Jerrin Jaramillo & Futuristic:] I got my finger on the trigger The pain you caused me, you'll never know I'm ready to die Got my finger on the trigger I loved to loathe you, I'm letting you go Cause I got nothing inside You don't really know what you do to me We ain't everything that we used to be I'm ready to leave you truthfully You should see my finger on the trigger I'm ready to die [Verse 2 - Futuristic:] Let me think this through, let me think this through If I leave right now what will it do, I got things to prove A couple things to lose, what about my fans What about my fam, they need this too What about my Grams, rest in peace She wanted me to see this through What about my bro He needed a father figure and I pretty much raised him I gotta make sure that his head's on straight And I gotta have faith that we both gon' make it What about her, what about her We lost that pa**ion but we can make it work We can make it work, I never wanted this to happen And I've been selfish in my ways I guess I brought this on myself I always push you away When you tell me you're there to help And I still don't know where to go from here I think that scares me most I really just wanna make sure That my story gets retold And it's a shame, I feel so sane With this gun on my brain Adrenaline veins, feeling no pain This might be the day that I ease off And I call my n***a and he don't answer I grab my gun and I pull that trigger, I pull that trigger [Hook - Jerrin Jaramillo & Futuristic]