Jay-z - 4:44 lyrics

[Intro – Kim Burrell] Do I find it so hard When I know in my heart I'm letting you down everyday Letting you down everyday Why do I keep on running away [Verse 1 – Jay-Z] Look, I apologize, often womanize Took for my child to be born See through a woman's eyes Took for these natural twins to believe in miracles Took me too long for this song I don't deserve you, I hara** you out in Paris Please come back to Rome, you make it home We talked for hours when you were on tour Please pick up the phone, pick up the phone Said don't embarra** me instead of be mine That was my proposal for us to go steady That was your 21st birthday, you mature faster than me I wasn't ready, so I apologize I've seen the innocence leave your eyes I still mourn this d**h, I apologize for all the stillborns ‘Cause I wasn't pressing, your body wouldn't accept it I apologize to all the woman whom I Toyed with you emotions because I was emotionless I apologize 'cause at your best you are love And because I fall short of what I say I'm all about Your eyes leave with the soul that your body once housed And you stare blankly into space Thinking of all the time you wasted in on all this basic sh** So I apologize [Hook/Chorus – Hannah Williams] I'm never gonna treat you, never gonna treat you like I should [Verse 2 – Jay-Z] I apologize, our love was one for the ages and I contained us And all this ratchet sh** and we more expansive now Meant to cry and die alone in these mansions Or sleep with our back turned We're supposed to vacay 'til our backs burn We're supposed to laugh 'til our heart stops And then we end a space with a dark stop And let love light the way Like the men before me, I cut off my nose in spite my face I never wanted another woman to know Something about me that you didn't know I promised I cried I couldn't hold I s** at love, I think I need a do-over I will be emotionally available if I invited you over I stew over what if you over my sh**? [Hook/Chorus – Hannah Williams] I'm never gonna treat you, never gonna treat you like I should [Verse 3 – JAY-Z] And if my children knew, I don't even know what I would do If they ain't look at me the same I would prolly die with all the shame (You did what with who?) What good is a ménage à trois when you have a soulmate? (You risked that for Blue?) If I wasn't a superhero in your face My heart breaks for the day I had to explain my mistakes And the mask goes away and Santa Claus is fake And you go online and see For Blue's tooth, the tooth fairy didn't pay [Hook/Chorus – Hannah Williams] I'm never gonna treat you like I should