Jandek - If Your Fortune Fails You lyrics

Say if your fortune fails you You can say I was no good Say I led you to destruction Bye bye I was outside of you When you were all around me Curtains (?)??? I felt I was a hero But it wasn't me It was your lady Hers Now I got too many closing (?) Too many mornings just aren't the same Maniac visions of a world beyond my eyes In the skies of our dreams mama Heaven lead (leave?) you