Jandek - First You Think Your Fortune's Lovely lyrics

Everything's so restless The wind has come again Blowing me so far I think I see a star First you think your fortune's lovely And you fly out through the door Grandmama I feel so lonely My rapture's painted on the floor The roads lead all to Jacob's kitchen I'm sitting moon eyed at the table Sitting blank-eyed by the door Oh Lord, do you really think I'm able Well I chose this love completely When you took away the charm Set your mind on breaking burdens Said you done no one no harm I feel a bit like floating water Headed for the rocks at bay Crash upon some ocean liner Comes upon my lonesome way Thought I see your eyes a-flashing Thunder in your hair I burnt a match for your complexion The lights went out and you weren't there Seated by the ranch I'm owning Staring at the cellophane Somebody came in for a question I poured a gla** out in the rain The reason I have been accepted Is that I failed to come on strong Found a chair beside a window Found a place where I belong Inside myself there is no question Just the jangle of our brain Three times four is twenty-seven Only fragments still remain I curse the day I found my freedom You took the mirror from the wall Placed it in a single suitcase Pointed down a hollow hall You said you see your true direction I'll be there behind the sun And I'll go with you in the springtime When all your travels have been done