Jandek - Going Away My Darling lyrics

I'm going away my darling I'll send you my address A black cat crossed my path And I'm nervous at the sound Sun will greet me in the morning Wind will meet me in the cold Cause I'm going away my darling Can't take you along with me Be myself in the country I'll come back as best I can And if I make (?) the man I'm thinking You'll be the guest at his parade Catch a leaf that blooms in April Step out of the winter snow And if by then you still love me The country air is fresh and clean And by the time it's time to ride Into the city for the stage I'll ride on in to bring life That I been living all this time For those to see Who have not heard about the love You gave to me About the love I wrote about Inside myself in a quiet time And if by then you come and tell me That you must find a truer love For yourself and that's for certain A truer love I hope you find I took the light shines from your forehead I took the darkness of your breast I give them to the lonely world I give to you You gave to me