Jamie Lenman - Personal lyrics

I used to pray beside my bed Like in a story book I knelt My heart was open wide Hopeful and terrified But slowly all those feelings died When all my little whispers They vanished into nothing Like reaching in your belly And coming out with stuffing I’m looking to the heavens And screaming, “come and get me,” I could have been an angel Oh, if they’d only let me It’s like I personally stole from God Don’t you think it’s mighty odd How every time I try for grace It blows up in my ugly face? Personal magician man Guess I just don’t fit the plan All despite my every plea They closed the pearly gates on me I went to worship in my teens I was the youngest in the whole I sat through hours of self-served praise Laugh-out love But still no signals from above So, I wandered all around then I visit holy places But all of them were hollow Not even any traces My heart began to harden Yeah, hope is just a memory For thinking true believer I won’t admit to envy Yeah, f** the things you know I f**ing told you so It’s a really evil a rumor And I lost my sense of humor Is everything a loss? Yeah, this is all you got To take on yourself There ain’t nobody else It’s like I personally stole from God Don’t you think it’s mighty odd How every time I try for grace It blows up in my ugly face? Personal magician man Guess I just don’t fit the plan All despite my every plea Slammed those pearly gates… This time it’s personal Bodies in the river History in my hand I read the ancient books And I don’t understand Don’t want to deliver And churches become sand I’m far from entering into the promised land Yeah, this time it’s personal It’s like I personally stole from God Don’t you think it’s mighty odd How every time I try for grace It blows up in my ugly face? Personal magician man Guess I just don’t fit the plan All despite my every plea They close the pearly gates on me [indistinguishable] Feel those fingers digging in Shocking numbers Keeping rhythm [indistinguishable]