Jags - Keynote lyrics

I need to take a minute just to talk about my life Cos there's just a bunch topics that I need to bring to light I mean I grew up so misunderstood I swear I tried to deal With all of these emotions but I failed so I concealed And everyone just looked at me like "boy is something wrong?" I looked back and told them "no I'm fine!" so moving on And lately I've been feeling kinda lost and so withdrawn Man, life was kinda beautiful now everything is gone I mean you wake up in the morning and you have a father figure Who you're looking up to trying to be or even to be bigger What happens when the person is not there to be your guide? Life is an enigma cos nobody tells you why I tried to keep up with the pace, I really tried to find my place I'm trying to look for where I fit in so I'm arguing with fate While I'm searching for the money I'm broker no real estate Life is no rehearsal, you don't get a second take The irony in it is they say life is like a movie I bought my ticket 20 years ago I'm getting through it I never skipped a scene did it for the movie magic You struggle for the laughs but the pain is automatic I talk about my life cos I'm trying to make decisions I'm cutting off fake friends sharp with precision That means I'm being careful, I'm tired of being reckless I had to get experience for me to learn a lesson When my dreams come kicking in I want to be prepared Cos I'm scared of disappointment so I'm facing all my fears And if push comes to shove I know at least I tried I protected all I cared about my fortitude's my mind My pride is always on the surface trying to reach out And so I put my words in music just so I could speak out I do it for the loners thinking that they always miss out On everything, I hope to God that you would never freak out I guess there's never true endings just new beginnings I've been through hell and now I'm back...I know I'm only human And late at night I lay down and I close my eyes to sleep I just turn around to heaven and I pray my soul to keep Cos I let go of the demons and the monsters in the closet I'm talking bout my fears and the voices, to be honest You know it's crazy how I see things clearly I pushed away everybody couldn't get near me As I'm painting vivid pictures of my past within my present I hope to see a future with a legacy...a legend Sometimes I wonder why I'm fascinated by d**h It's not new to me I wonder if there's a heaven or hell...well... [Female Voice] Hey…It's been a while, I hope you're good I've kinda been trying to get you for a while now I guess I miss you but whatever Call me when you get this Enough about the pain I'm good with switching lanes I'm super with the words man I found my Lois lane This rap game is funny cos I swear we're not the same They wanna see the God (cthagod) and I ain't talking Charlemagne The truth is I'm stuck with the same old story So I made a new persona and let go of the old me