J rap - Nostalgia lyrics

I've been trying to get to the edge of the universe Nothing but lies on my side Believe what you want Turn me inside-out Child, hear me now Drenched in blood Tell the angels to bring me a towel I need you now I'm cracking smiles lesser everyday Back in the day, my childish ways Looking for you again Sand castles made of gold speckles You can count the days gone by on my freckles Once I was a king, but now I'm down by the jesters I'll be a king tomorrow I was yesterday, so why am I not now? I'll bring flowers to my own grave Slit my past self's throat, there's nothing left to save Troublesome in the present There is nothing more that I gave Chop my heart to pieces Something like a mind full of speeches I will find my peace at the ends of these beaches