J. Cole - Cousins lyrics

[Verse 1] Yeah, grew up with k**ers, I ain't know they was k**ers We was just together man, playing Megaman on Sega man Your mama loved me to d**h She reminded me of a ?, yeah real black queen If I had a genie, I wish that she ain't struggle no more Y'all wouldn't have to go to sleep with all them roaches If she wasn't so poor You told me when you came to my house, the sh** was like a timeout From, reality One night you asked me what I'm crying 'bout Cause you was staying over for the weekend I woke up from out my sleep when I heard mama And my Step-father beffing I don't know if he'd been drinking But I know that sh** got loud, and I heard rumbling sponsored links From struggling and rolling on the ground Could never get used to that sound My mama saying, “Get off me!” My tears is tumbling now, I wish that you never had saw me Cause I, felt like a coward so powerless, I was only twelve I wish I would've bust right through that door my f**ing self And grab the Glock right off the f**ing shelf if nothing else Scared a n***a sh**less, there goes two of my wishes Forever scarred, determined to get some heart No matter how big the n***a, no matter how small you are Fast forward to our older years, two different paths You used to talk to me 'bout college, but that sh** didn't last Wasted potential getting cash, what could I say So tired of not having things, you never see it my way Too proud to fold, your demise, one day much to my surprise My n***a called me told me you just caught a body twice his size I asked him was it self defense, he said it was defense of pride And that they trying to give you 10, but if your lucky you'll do five Damn, not my n***a, that same one that told that things always get better Just trust me don't cry my n***a The news call him a k**er, but he my n***a Sad sh**, ayo genie, last wish: Free my n***a