J. Cole - Mama I'm Sorry lyrics

[Verse 1] Mama I'm sorry, that I could never be the son you wanted Even though you know I know that you would be the one who's punished For my ways, & my lies, always saw from different eyes Even when I got my gla**es, that just help fit my disguise I despise, all these guys, that you bringin in my life Yeah we movin into houses, but they never treat us right Member when you used to come into my sisters room at night? Know that dude he used to hit you every single time you fight I'mma k** em ma-.. & I put that on my life You can write it on my tombstone I apologize to Christ If I believed.. I just wish I could believe That one day things'll get better & you'll just love me for me But you can't & sh** I guess I understand Im a waste of a body & my whole birth wasn't planned But ma I promise till I die that I'mma always try my best Cuz you gave me all you got to you I owe my success [Verse 2] Dad.. Man you left me alone & boy You always be trippin when I be textin ya phone Man I'm just tryna say wa**up, I'm just tryna say hey But the message wasn't good enough for you to convey Member when I was a kid I used to lay down and cry Because I missed you so much that I just wanted to die Member back in '05 one day we went to the park We was swingin on the swings late into the dark Now It's different.. But I guess that's how it is You done found a new wife & hang around with her kids & that's ok.. Please just promise you'll remember me Know that you're a reason that I try to make a better me I just want some love from you.. I dont even f** with you.. Guess im contradictin, but my hearts just not conditioned So just please receive my message, hopefully you can accept it Im sorry..