ItsjustLalith - CONFESSIONS lyrics

I'm sitting in this dark room with a concrete thought/like literally! No beat no paper no pen but just an off beat heart/ Trying hard to see, I'm gone deep dark/ What's a f**ing vision without the mind tree's spark?/ Find me lord!, the signs drive me odd/ I feel like a dry meat ball fried thrice deep charred/ I cry these scars yet I fight these wars/ Because I need not have to plight me false/ For thy cheap brawls, My pride's been shot/ I'm tired, find me lord!/ A confession, to my self and not to any other presence that exists/ I embrace the inner God, I'm part of the higher form/ A dire call, before the fire storm I gotta find calm/ So i had a tired walk to the mirror hung over my dryer's wall/ Turned on the dim light looking through, ready for a satire talk/huh Questions Gyred all around me, I'm helpless, should I cry it out?/ Again?!, Oh do I have to pretend?/ Again?!, there's no end to the pain?/ Again?! is there a clog in my brain?/ Well let me bust it!..I'm mundane../ So it's all loose channels in my brain now!/ I'm angry like Bruce banner in my veins now!/but Chivalry! like, Bruce's manners inside the Wayne house!/ I shall be, truce bagged aside, insane now!!/ But hey, the rage could pause, wait a moment/ Once I get this sh** off my chest it can straight up roll in/ Yo!... 10 conscious years of constant harsh contents learned/ Tons contradict, but my conscience conquered, morals earned/ None fond of me, but I found my fodder, Slaughtered words/ Friends fraudulent, facetious faces, f**k your curse/ I been broke and hurt giving a f**k to every word that y'all splurt/ Not giving a thought about my inner voice that I heard/ Whom do i screw?, my own people from fam to crew left me in blues/ Abuse on my back and applaud on the front, please EXCUSE!/ The last of whom I thought was good, who knew me/ From odds to good was last of whom I thought to accuse Me/ Coz he finally got co*k to ride on and get his music's views lit/ The Talent's Amusing! yet charac's Abstrusive/ Abusing peace and love with a bit of humble to Sprinkle in/ At least Judas did Jesus! for 30 silvers/ While b**h You did me for an insecurity of a squeaking dude for a lick of his dirty pickle/ F**K it if, for a moment, these bars ahead don't rhyme in/ I was wrong all along the time man/ None of you Mofos deserved my love and respect/ You just a bunch of insecure b**hes whom I believed were true in what they do/ Well hell yeah they are true in what they do in plotting blue prints to pull in/ People who keepin it real down to ditches and screw them!!/ Less do you know Mo***ers like me are like sayans we don't lose in we keep moving/ Well that's done! let me let the Rage resume in now see who's the omen!/ Yo! I got the Pain paired with purpose in my veins, like Wayne, Im baring/ All the strain, migraine in brain, the rain ain't there yet/ To cleanse my name off the vain that pave my ailment./ So I paint pages with nerve rush in my brain like there's no payment!!/ For the art I put in these bars I flow in/ For I spark an ocean of thoughts so open/ I'll knock your fore head if you are not exploring/ Your heart and soul, hence, then what's your goal then?/ Stalking hoes and some pot to blow and/ Some cars with gold spokes! Ciroc that's orange?/ While your mom is sobbing!!/ Coz you're not what she thought that you are, she's broken/ See I could've been a spoilt brat, moved by the sinisters/ I would've even voiced gats, blued by the sinisters/ I should've given'em boys back, Duel fights and finish the/ Menace up, blemish c*nts like i got a lotta plenty f**s??!!/ Rather I use my time force to find hope in blind doors/ Coz I'm told "the light don't shine though if you got a blind soul"!!/ Rhyme after Rhyme I write to ignite my Own spine/ I hold the rhyme force.. Until I froze like a mo***ng ice cold Sign board/ sh** I spit be ubiquitous, critics shiver as I slither with this/ What I see is ridiculous b**hes utterring sh** so gimmick-culous/ Biting rhythm and scripts of other spitters who keepin it Meticulous/ Plenty k**ers but who the f**ng villain keepin it real and down to earth and Unique with this?!!/ You better watch out coz! I'm thriving to be the Einstein of this rhyme style that i keep Cryptographic/ Frying your eye sights with these fire lines guess it's pyrolytic/ Leaving your spines iced as I swipe lines the flow's cryogenic/ Ill let your thoughts fly, so high!! that makes the sky a gimmick/ I been ditched in this b**h, Emcees claim "Real" but they snitched/ The game's for real but they ain't surreal yet they Clicked/ Was a hard knock on my chest I crept until I knew it was a test/ The clock hit 3 ova 12, the moment I stepped!!/ Lalith be the jinx in this b**h, the things that he spits/ Distinct and it's lit, the way that he thinks is legit/ Whether he's tall or a midget, none can f** with his sk**s/ Abducts with the feels that he gives!/... Verbal gymnastics as nasty as Kim kardashian's a**/ Ever lasting as Cartesian's math b**ch/.. You better get some Eucalyptus, Before you wound your sepsis/ Thinking of raising yo bars?, you need 6.9 bill dudes to lift it/ I don't give a damn about the views for this vid/ Unless you "Amused" and kissed it/ It proves that I'm true to this sh**/ For you Its a duel for b**hes/ Fool rather use some biscuits/ I rather be called as the last hope/ Coz I'm the new invention of 2 O 16/ Coz u thinking too much of future/ And young thugs you listening/B**ch!